and then I killed myself

20 years old.
From The North of Ireland.
Studies Politics at University

May 10, 2012 1:09 am
"Besides, it happens fast for some people and slow for some, accidents or gravity, but we all end up mutilated. Most women know this feeling of being more and more invisible everyday."

― Chuck Palahniuk, Invisible Monsters

(Source: heartandchaos)

April 30, 2012 1:21 am
At one with the fairies: You know what I really wanna do.. Go back to my school and go to all...

trixiefitz:

You know what I really wanna do.. Go back to my school and go to all the teachers that thought I’d do shit and just say fuck you.
I’ve got an internship. I’m having my work in a fashion show very soon. I’m working with an amazing designer and I’ve got an unconditional offer to study fashion in…

This forever.
Academic ability is not the be all and end all.

April 12, 2012 5:11 pm

Today my mum had a spiritual reading that myself and my sisters paid for, cus it was her birthday and what not.
So yeah, my mum was telling me the stuff that was said. Really freaky stuff. The woman who done the reading was able to pull up several family members and their deaths. Cousins from america. Asked my mum about my friend Karen and told her to tell said friend not to worry because in August it’ll be all over and the baby will be fine.
She asked my mum if my mum knew about my plans for Costa Rica. Told my mum my sister is in Dublin (which she is). She also knew a lot about what happened between me and someone whom I used to be friends with and told my mum to tell me to “stay away” from this person because they have ulterior motives for wanting to be in my life again.
She also knew my sister wanted to be a children’s art therapist. 

HOW DO THEY KNEW THESE THINGS?¬?!
I want to go, too bad I’m poooorrrrr.  

April 3, 2012 12:21 pm

WHY IS EVERYTHING SO STRESSFUL?!
I got an email today stating my third loan instalment would be blocked. So I phoned student finance who said that it hasn’t been blocked, but that I’ve magically with drawn from queens. So I phone Queens finance who just put me through to incoming finance, who have no idea why i’m speaking to them, who then forward me through to my school office who say that I’ve not with drawn at all. SO WHY THE EMAIL?! WHAT IS GOING ON. NO ONE KNOWS.
If I don’t get this payment so much stuff will be mcfucked up.
I can’t exist. 

March 19, 2012 2:02 am March 9, 2012 6:00 pm February 3, 2012 12:19 am
"The only thing I HAVE to do in this life is die. Everything else is a choice with consequences - including breathing"

Genie - HBI member
January 29, 2012 2:24 pm
"You have a choice. Live or die. Every breath is a choice. Every minute is a choice. To be or not to be"

Survivor - Chuck Palahnuik
January 26, 2012 7:41 pm
"Your birth is a mistake you’ll spend your whole life trying to correct."

Invisible Monsters
January 14, 2012 6:03 pm

AHHHHHH

I dunno if I should go dancing
or if I should stay in my warm house and eat Chinese food 

December 20, 2011 7:47 pm November 30, 2011 1:40 am November 29, 2011 6:52 pm
"As my dear departed friend Lotus Weinstock used to say: “I used to wanna change the world. Now I just wanna leave the room with a little dignity."

Justin Bond - ShortBus
September 21, 2011 12:26 am August 28, 2011 3:52 am